YOUTUBE, screw you!

so I just don't know, I have wanted to make youtube videos so I bought a webcam but now I just don't really know what to do. It's like I'm waiting for the right moment but what special moment?! It's just a video!!!! I dunno, I seem kinda confused... everytime I have done everything for the video, then I just get that random feeling, like I don't wanna do this now. But the next day I think why I haven't made any videos yet?! Damn!!! I want to make myself popular, that's all! Is it maybe a fear of public??? NAHhh... it can't be!
<------- SCARY SHIT!! o.O 
Do you think I have a fear of WEBCAMS ?? :D :D