Depression?

Ohhhhhh 

not this again! I have written a whoooole huge text & accidentally deletes it! How can it always happen to me??? :D I'm too lazy now to remember the whole wisdom so I will be very short
I wanna go abroad
I can't act that I love learning to my parents who ask too much from me & they don't really  understand that I'm not all like mom, who only cared about getting A+ & probably was a lot smarter than me
I really understand that I'm lazy, but I need some reasons for my brain to torture himself learning shit, that I won't probably use!
I see where X is hiding, I really do, dear algebra, sooo as once said - Maths book committed suicide, cause it had too much problems... I really want my books to do the same & I really want our minister of education to fucking chill out! 
To all my torturers aka angry teachers - you'll BIH not RIP

   Sincerely, every single kid u have taught!